New year comes new hope and dreams!!

Its been a while seen my last update. I've been very busy lately.

So, lets start.

Its 2012 baby!! New year comes new hope and dreams!! So, this year i'm doing things differently now. Yes, i changing the my lifestyle. Bali trip is few months away, i'm looking forward for that and recently, i reconnect with few old friends of mine. How cool was that!! Meeting them really brings back the memories!!

Ok, work was hell, i'm not gonna blog bout it but i am gonna blog about something..hahaha..

Anyway, this past few days was awesome, i get to spent time with one of the most beautiful girl that ever came into my life!! Don't worry, we're just friends..:)

She just came back from Kuching and i decided to hang out with her, i know what you're thinking now. u're thinking that i'm trying to hit on this girl..nnooooooo..i'm totally cool with us being friends for now. Both of us been through a rough break-up and both of us need a break.

So, ok, we went out, we hang out, we dated as friend and suprisingly we're trying to get to know each other, well, we lost contact few years back and only met up again last year. and meeting her again is super cool!! it really lift me up from what the depression that i had..

So, it was Valentine's Day and i asked her out..called it a date or what ever u like, the important thing is we went out and have fun single style!!..ahahha..well, watching her smile is good enough..yes, i have a soft spot for girls ok..its not a big deal..the only thing is i forgot to buy her flowers..i know i know...looks like i'm trying soooo damn hard to hit on this girl but no, she deserve a flower on V'day coz she told me her sad story and i felt guilty not buying something that she deserve. but anyway, i giving her flower before she leaves to Kuching this weekend :) call me hopeless romantic!!..ahahahha

Peace!!

Decision??

Honestly, i still have feelings for my ex even after we broke up 1 year ago. i just found her in fb and it makes me want her back even more. i know this might sound stupid, after what she done to me and what she did behind me and all other things that i don't know i still want her. i guess love really is blind.

Feeling Crappy

Today (23/8/2011), is one hell of a day. Mood been up and down and now is just feeling empty and abit emo...ehehee..feeling so tired after whole day of driving around and nothing seems to make me feel better...it keep on getting worse...

Now, this post is more to what i feel this past few days..remember when someone told you that you can only appreciate something/one if that something/one is gone...well, basically that what i feel now..i miss her so damn much..and now i don't know how to bring her back..i'm not that desperate to get in an relationship but sometimes it just nice to have someone there for you and someone that you can share anything with..i want that someone and i had that someone and now....empty...nothing...and nothing much i can do...given up??...maybe yes, maybe no...i don't know...

hello bloG!

hahaha...it's been a while seen I post my previous blog and now here I am again..so..where to begin??...

Well, I'm proud to say that i made it through the 3 years of study and now officially jobless......@_@ but I know that finding a job is tough at the moment but I'll always try to be positive bout it..that's what this is all about..nothing is given to you in this world except for your family..so, just try to keep everything positive even you are down..

This past few weeks have been the most difficult weeks of my life..jobless and cash is running short so i try to do a little saving in case of emergency..hey, anyone reading this and know somebody/company that is hiring in the management department..hit me up k..cause I've been submitting my resume to lots and lots of company lately and so far no reply from all of them..so now I'm getting desperate..

Ok..oh yeah..I'm officially single also..hahaha..*statement*..things are not easy lately so yeah...being single again prove all of that..now I just have to think bout myself and try to focus more on what I should do..so girls..so sorry..wwwaaaahhhh!!!..

Well, that's all for now...just wait for the next update...PEACE! V+_+

why oh why??

I MISS YOU!!

oh......my darling........

Well, it the middle of the night and i still up...i slept the whole afternoon actually. Just finish my assignment and need to wait for my friend to come and take it..

Wokey, lets see. Class was ok so far, everything is ok...and hopefully my result also ok...

Move along, browsing thru my fb page just now and saw so many emotional comment form unknown people..well, every social networking site now has turn into a place where people express themselves emotionally and here something that i read just now and i think u know who post this. *unless your not her friend in fb*

Basically she stated that she misses her late bf so much..the bf actually pass away on a tragic accident in Miri in 2010. I felt sorry for her actually. I know it's hard to lose someone that u really love and care about..hell, even breaking up a relationship is torture for us human what more facing with the death of another person. As her friend, i've advise her before saying that she have to stop thinking bout him..for her own good..she have to stop..the more she think the more she'll get hurt..but hey, who am i to say..the problem is she never want to listen..now, only time can tell...

To be honest, i actually fall in love with the girl..she's different..i meant she got her own way..not only thru her beauty but thru what she do..and i really miss her now...like i said..only time can tell what's gonna happen..so now, i just let it be and try to live my life..

Peace *_*V
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try to get a head of time

Still got another 2 weeks left of my time here and all of a sudden, i start thinking about my past...all the ex gf and all the scandal..which really brought me down and to make things worst i kept thinking about what they did to me and what i did to them...no guys...this is not one of my repent session..

it's just that all those things kept me thinking all day..and this evening, i was about to buy myself and brand new external hard drive and guess what...i started to have second guesses...which is weird..i always wanted to buy it buy at the very last minute i change my mind...ok...that was not so weird..maybe im gonna get it on my final week here...ok back to the story, 3 years of my time i spent most of it far away from people that i loved and it makes me feel free..now i just 2 weeks to feel that way..i know going back home is the best feeling ever...yeah..meeting friends and family..but is that what we really want??...think about it...being far away is way better..sure u'll get lonely at some point..but hey, it's ok...it's not gonna kill you...

all my life other keep making decision for me instead of making them myself...but i feel like this time i want to make my own decision and i know my decision will actually hurt some feelings but it's my choice...right??..i get to decide what i want to do with my life..but i wish that was happening now...to be honest i don't want to leave shah alam...i know this place is boring and kinda dead to some...but this is the only place where i have great and joyful memories with people that i met 3 years back..maybe that's what i want..not being with the people i know for a long time...but i made my decision to come home..well, not really my decision..but i am still gonna make decision when im home...i guess it's time that we actually have to move on in life...nobody is gonna be there for us all the time...people change...just look at me now...i use to be proud of myself but not now...

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